Routine life is full of routines, like washing the dishes.

My brother finds it refreshing to spend time with me because I live in the present.  My routine revolves around the next radiation treatment and that is far as I can plan, because I won't know how I will feel, and the next appointment is only confirmed the day before.  The RT appointment determines when I eat, when I take my meds, and when I do most things.

So living in the present is "refreshing".  I don't have depression from living in the past, and I don't have anxiety from living in the future.  And I'm not living too busy - like my sister who has asked to us to call within a 15 minute window between when she is driving between appointments about her fractured shoulder from biking in too much of a hurry.  

So I should be at peace!

But I'm bored.  I think boredom is my current big challenge. 

I feel limited in so many ways: I can't drive, I can"t read or listen except to the simplest stuff because of comprehension issues, I can't talk or write because of expression issues (these little blogs are a 1 - 2 day project).  I can't participate with conversations about medical care / policies (which I had planned to do in semi-retirement).  I can't realistically return to part-time work.

My main hobby is photography (motorcycling is out) - but is limited by fatigue and time organized around my RT times.

So finding things to do within my limits is my current big challenge to fight the boredom.